An Artist's Thoughts

All I know is that Beethoven was genius. And he felt sucky sucky a lot too. Learning moonlight sonata is quite a journey into a fellow ocd'er who makes me realize our "quirks" do make us artists.

Playing the piano and sketching...heck, even coding when I enjoy the app I'm working on, are all activities where the ocd in me is what makes me excel in that activity. It's just that society's standards (especially corporate culture) don't align with that unique personality of mine.

So as I find my true identity in this journey and learn to accept it and embrace it I am challenged with another journey to create an environment where my soul can survive.

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All passions require work. We're all born with certain inclinations that make us work a little less at first (my sketching). Those inclinations may be called "talents" but in escence all talents must be developed, worked on. Some learned from scratch when lacking the genetic inclinations (like I did with singing and I'm doing with the piano).

So it's up to you, your passion, your discipline, your hard work, how talented you are and will become.

If you're questioning your passion for something, your discipline in it, your willingness to work on it, develop it, then, yes, you must question the future of your talent, whatever talent it is.

Creativity is built, like all muscles, like all qualities, like all talents.

Our artistic capacity is infinite as there are plenty of brain neurons to use. Your capacity for greatness lies on your passion, dedication, persistence, hard work.

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When you're just embarking in a new journey. You'll have learning and growing to do. Be patient with yourself. Acknowledge and embrace the level you're at. Otherwise you'll be frustrated which will lead you to giving up more easily and quickly.

If I thought of myself as a talented pianist, I would surely have given up after a few minutes of practice. I'm having fun with it, learning it, becoming better. That's how I'm sticking to it and getting better. If I just focused on the destination and the long way I have to get to it. I would have quit by now.

Be humble. And you'll be happier.

Ps. I don't think a psychopath would be a better artist than a human with a full array of emotions, especially one who's experienced depression.